New Year's Resolutions

Diane Garnick: The most important trait necessary for finding a soul mate... is being true to your own soul.

Being true to one's soul is a complicated matter. How do we know we're not being horribly selfish? How do we know that being horribly selfish is perhaps the right thing to do? Being true to yourself is alot harder than it seems. You have to second guess your motives. Maybe being true to yourself means quitting a job? But how would you pay your bills? Maybe being true to myself means keeping a secret that has no business being kept? Someone should write a guideline on this being true to yourself business.

In honor of the New Year I have began a series of 'changes' I have instituted. I have chopped off 8 inches of my hair, which to some Native American tribes would be a symbol of mourning, but to me this is a symbol of a new beginning. I have a new job - not as great as my last one but it is something new and different. I live 3,000 miles away from where I spent last New Years and hopefully this distance will count for something.

It has been said that if you dislike your life then the only course is to disrupt it; to change certain aspects of your life which will force YOU to change. These changes may not lead to anything new and I may stay stuck in the same self-inflicted isolated state that I am in now...but there's always that chance that something will change.

New Year's Resolutions:

1. Write more and often (i.e. doesn't necessarily mean great writing)
2. Make my language more age appropriate (i.e. no more shit, fuck, cunt, snatch,
damn, hell, and etc)
3. Control my actions ( I may not be able to control the situation but I can
control my own actions - not arguing or fighting)
4. Find some form of inner peace